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48.The last of his own illusions seemed to have crumbled near the end.

At the end of his life, he lost the last bit of his positive view of man and the world.

49.I observe with amusement how totally the concerns of the world, which once absorbed me to the exclusion

of all else except an occasional relaxation with poetry or music, have lost interest for me even to the extent of a bored distaste.

I was once so completely absorbed in the important affairs of the world that I devoted all my attention, time and energy to them and only occasionally did I allow myself a little rest by reading poetry or listening to music.

50.Or maybe Laura’s unwitting influence has called it out.

Or maybe my suppressed inclination has been called out under Laura’s unintentional influence.

51.Dismissive as a Pharisee, I regarded as moonlings all those whose life was lived on less practical plane.

I was as careless of others as a Pharisee and I viewed with contempt all those who lived a less practical life than my own and regarded them as inhabitants on the moon.

52.A hard materialism was my creed, accepted as a law of progress; any ascription of disinterested motives

aroused not only my suspicion but my scorn.

I firmly believed in materialism which in my opinion represented the law of human progress. When people said they did things out of unselfish motives, I suspected them and viewed them with contempt.

53.And now see how I stand, as sentimental and sensitive as any old maid doing water colors of sunsets!

Just imagine how I have changed now. Here I stand, sentimental and sensitive, like an old unmarried woman painting a water-color picture of the sunset.

54.Iwant my fill of beauty before I go.

I want to enjoy beauty as much as I can before I die.

55.…no longer what people believe me to be, a middle-aged journalist taking a holiday on an ocean-going liner,

but……a vision of the world inspired from Olympus.

At this moment I am not the middle-aged journalist that people believe me to be, spending a holiday on an ocean-going liner. I have now become a liberated person, bathed in magic waters, and I feel I am like Endymion, a young and strong youth who has a god for his father and gifted with the power to see the world inspired by the gods at Olympus.

56.All weight is lifted from my body; I’m one with the night…

I feel that I am weightless and totally absorbed by the night and united with the night.

57.Thus, I imagine, must the pious feel cleansed on leaving the confessional after the solemnity of absolution. Therefore, I imagine devoted religious people must feel as clean and pure as I do now when they leave the solemn confessional after gaining pardon for their sins.

58.So do I let my imagination play over the recesses of Laura’s character……for the discovery of the

venturesome.

In this way I let myself freely imagine what the innermost part of Laura’s character presents. She looks so severe outwardly, but inwardly she is full of tenderness- tenderness like delicate flowers waiting for the daring to discover them.

59.We might all take a lesson from him, knowing the latitude we can permit ourselves.

We should all learn from the albatross and also know how far we can allow ourselves to go.

60.This is the new Edmund Carr with a vengeance.

Here I’m born anew, completely different from the past.

61.…the Pacific alone dwarfs all the continents but together.

The Pacific Ocean alone is much larger than all the continents combined.

62.I have been exhilarated by two days of storm, but above all I love these purposeless days in which I shed all